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  • I Watched Myself Change

    I Watched Myself Change

    You don’t always lose yourself
    without noticing.

    I Watched Myself Change is about the small compromises that gradually become part of who we are. The narrator sees himself agreeing when he wants to refuse, accepting things he once opposed and calling retreat maturity. There is no single event to blame and no dramatic collapse. What troubles him is simpler: he recognised what was happening, understood his own part in it, and kept going anyway.

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    I noticed it
    But I kept going

    I said yes when I meant no
    I laughed at things I hate
    I kept the peace
    I kept my place

    I watched my edges getting smooth
    I watched the anger fade
    Not because I grew
    Because I caved

    I told myself
    This is survival

    I watched myself change
    I watched it happen
    Piece by piece
    Decision by decision

    I watched myself change
    And I stayed quiet
    Now I don’t recognise
    The voice inside it

    I defend things I don’t believe
    I nod before they finish
    Every line I swore I’d never cross
    Is now a habit

    I wear the calm like borrowed skin
    I sell it as maturity
    But every compromise
    Was just cowardice in me

    There was no moment
    No disaster
    No collapse

    Just a thousand quiet choices
    I refused to stop

    I watched myself change

    I noticed it
    And I kept going